The Love letter I never wrote

So today sitting here procrastinating listening to sappy romantic songs I have decided that I often tell Kyle that I love him but I often do not tell him why.... So I have decided that I am going to tell the world why I love this man. I am going to stop the trend of not saying what I mean, of not telling my husband what he means to me. Like BBS' mini series of Robin hood says so well "we have never once spoken the truth to each other, for instance i call you a fool when I mean you are a hero." Those words I believe say it best, if we love someone we should say it, say it right then, shout it from the roof tops. Why hid that love? So Kyle this is for you because I love you! You get a letter and a list of the top 10 reasons that I love you!

1. You make me laugh every day, there is never a day that goes by that I do not laugh at least once!

2. You are my best friend! I don't want to ever be apart from you, because you are the one that I want to be with.

3. You love me faults and all!

4. You let me vacuum

5. We both know that together we can work anything out

6. Even when I am grumpy or tired you still like me and like being with me.

7. You think I am always beautiful even when I look like a clown or when my hair looks like a rats nest. I may not feel beautiful at times but knowing you always think I am makes all the difference.

8. You always speak your mind! if you don't like my makeup you will tell me and not lie telling me i look fine when I really look like a hooker!

9. You let me talk as much or as little as I want with out becoming impatient.

10. I can tell you ANYTHING and you are totally ok with it. (Even when you really didn't need to know it.)

11. You can read my emotions better than anyone else and when I tell you I am ok and you know I am not you call me on it.

12. Sometimes you call just because you miss me and were thinking of me!

13. Who else can I laugh at my self with? "Hello Mr. Wall"

14. You don't mind just cuddling with me!

15. Your selfless!

16. You are always concerned with my well being, sometimes even before your own!

17. The way you make me feel like I am winning even when I am not!

18. The way you bring out the best in me!

19. How cute and adorable you can be!

20. I love every part of you, how open you are with me.

21. I love how you tickle me even when I scream and run away!

22. I love that you never give up on me, or my lack of patience.

23. I love the way you make me laugh

24. I love the way that just holding you makes the world sing!

25. I love you for a million little reasons everyone of them becomes more and more apparent every day! Thank you for loving me!

Well that was a little more then 10... sorry I had a hard time stopping at 25 I really could go on forever. Kyle is my life, my love, and the man I choose to be with forever!

Dear Kyle,
You are my everything. Thank you for loving me the way no one can. You understand me and you know just how to make things right, you make me laugh when no one else can. You will never know just how much I love you, but I will spend the rest of my days trying to show you. You saved me from the worst, and you are always there for me. Fighting is never an option and loving you is always as easy as breathing. It is a part of me, it is part of my soul. No matter what, there will never be another for me and I will always keep your love safe. I love you... for all eternity. I still to this day do not know what I did to deserve you, but I will work each moment of forever to be worthy of your love.

I love you because you make me look forward to each day. You make each and every day an adventure to look forward to, no matter what we are doing as long as I am with you I am happy. You're my everything, a dream come true. There are no words to express what I feel for you. There are no songs as beautiful as the music that fills my soul when I hear your voice or see you smile. There are no days better than the days I spend talking to you, holding you, making you happy. You're my light in the darkness. There could never be words strong enough to express my love for you. I love you with my body, soul, and mind. You're my everything.

I love every little thing about you. I love your cute smile, your magical eyes, and the sound of your voice. I love your gentle touch, and I love the warmth I feel when I’m by your side. I can't stop thinking about you when we are apart. I need you by my side. You complete me. You mean the world to me. You are the best thing that has ever happened to me. You are the one I've always wished for. I never thought that I would ever meet someone as special as you. I love each and every moment I share with you. Forever doesn't seem long enough to be with you. I love you and always will!

Love always,

Mariah your eternal companion

Weekly catch up

Well this past week has been an emotional roller coaster I know what you are thinking... another one? But I promise that it is mostly out of stress. So this week at work I went from working 40 plus hours a week to 20! I was so upset I asked if I did anything wrong. Apparently it wasn't me it was them but yet I am still getting punished for it. They were not giving breaks like is required by law!!! There were days that I would work a 9 hour shift with out a break, got to love it. Someone reported them to the labor union and well now they are making sure that at exactly 5 hours you are going on break and if they don't have enough people to cover breaks you are only scheduled for a 4 1/2 hour shift..... got to love it. NOT!

Needless to say because of the lack of hours I have been forced to look for another part time job. I hate looking for a new job. I had a couple of places that seemed promising, but apparently I wanted to be payed to much. I think I am worth it. I have an interview later today (phone interview) with a telemarketing place that is just opening a new office here in Utah for an office manager position. I hope that goes well. I think it will. I may not have experience in telemarketing but I have YEARS of experience with managing people and with receptionist work, its the same thing but in reverse. Instead of them calling me I call them. Watch out I might call you and you better be nice to me!

Nichole and Peter were here for general conference. He was singing in the Priesthood session of conference (in the conference center.) I was so happy to see them. I love my sister and I don't get to see her often with her living back in Illinois and me here in Utah. I miss her already and she just left yesterday.

So Kyle and I are going to go look at a new apartment latter today. Our lease is up in June at the place we are now, and the price is going to go up.... lovely! So we GET to move. But we are hoping on finding a place that is a little bigger, we are running out of room because we have to much stuff. I think this apartment would be great for a newly wed couple that hadn't lived on there own before but since we both did we have a lot of stuff.

Today has been hard though because I feel so depressed and I don't even know why. I miss Kyle more then normal. It felt like when he left for work that part of me was leaving. I miss him so much, I just need one of his hugs right now. He has a way of making me feel better no matter what by simply giving me a hug. I don't think I can ever be mad at him for more then 5 minutes either. He really is my better 1/2. He brings light and joy into my life. He is the reason I get out of bed each morning, the reason I am so happy. He brings so much joy into my life. There is never a day that goes by that I don't laugh. He is definitely good for me!

This weeks weather has been a soar spot for me though, Thursday it was 65 F sunny and beautiful, then walla Friday hits and SNOW!!! It snowed all weekend long and well monday night we had a lovely blizzard and the power went out. It would of been fine except the power stayed off and I was home along! I was a little scared. I don't like being home alone at nights anyway. But here it was 10 pm Kyle was at school and I was trying to stay calm. Grr 1/2 hour later the power came back on. I was just a little scardy cat thats all.

Wow it has been a while. I know its been awful. Well as an Update. I didn't get into the management program. They said that I didn't talk about myself enough... I am sorry that I am not self centered. It irritated me, the fact that I was the most qualified and because I didn't talk about my self more I didn't get in. In a way it was good. It made me realize that maybe it was time to not play politics, and not deal with everything. I love my job but its the politics and the fact that the way things are done depends on who is managing.... GRRRR!!!!

So I am applying to a million other jobs. I know its a pain and I HATE job searching. But I guess its helping a little. Its almost therapeutic at times.

Kyle is almost done with the fist quarter of school. I am so excited. Kyle gets a week off from school. I am excited because that means spending more time with him!!!! Yeah!! I am excited. I love that man! I am the luckiest woman alive.

Kyle is so good to me. He makes me so happy.

So I got accepted into the management training program at work. I don't know about the promotion yet, but time will tell. I am hopeful!

Valentines

Well Kyle is the sweetest man in the world! Valentines morning he woke me up throwing (real) rose petals all over the bed and all over me! It was so sweet and so romantic! He was so sweet. He was so happy and so just so sweet!

He then made me breakfast... my favoriate! French toast and cinnamon rolls. Ohh I love it. (definatly not diet food but heck its Valentines!)

Then we went to church... or tried. I ended up coming home early with a VERY Nauseous stomach! Kyle was sweet taking care of me. But after a little bit I felt better. He can really make me feel better. No matter what he is doing. Him just being in the room holding me makes everything seem so much better! I LOVE MY HUSBAND!

Then he made me dinner (I love having a husband who not only knows how to cook but loves doing it!) He made me chicken Alfredo. Yummy!!! Wow can you say GREAT VALENTINES! It was a wonderful day!

I have the best husband ever. I am so lucky that I found him. He loves me and I will always love him and will always think that I am the luckiest woman alive. Valentines made me think that realistically Kyle and I never would have meet. He was in Provo and I was in Salt Lake. Heavenly father had a hand in it for sure. I love you hon!

Happy Valentines

Well nothing much new to report. I am still waiting to hear about the position that I applied for. Kyle has switched positions at work, he is a delivery driver. He is just trying it out he is hoping for a managment possition...

Well just wanted to tell you the great news. I am applying to a program at work that will allow me to become a manager. I have to have a letter of recommendation from my manager (who loves me) I have to have a resume' and an interview with the general manager Don. He also loves me. So I am hopeful. I guess we will see.