Week in review

well this past little while has been crazy. At work they have been transferring people like crazy. My crew at work use to be 30 some people.... now we are down to 12! And only 8 full timers. It is crazy, the worst part was not knowing who was being transfered and who was staying. They were pulling people one at a time, so we never knew. Everyone was nervous and all day we would think is it going to be me? Is it me? Plus to top it off almost everyone was being transfered to the evening crew the 5 p.m. to 1:30 AM shift. Talk about nasty! I feel bad though one of the guys they transfered has been married a little over a month and his wife works days so this is going to make it so they never see each other. NASTY! But we are finally all staying. It was so nerve racking. I guess I can see were they are coming from but at the same time it is hard because our crew was so close, we were like a family. And they started tearing that family apart. As a result emotions ran high.

Lets see other then that I have been shopping for baby gifts. I know 2 people that are expecting. My sister in law.... still don't know what she is having. And a girl at work, she is having a boy! Its so cute seeing the baby bumps! But I am happy for them. I was talking with Nichole not to long ago she is ready for me to have one of my own, but understands the time is not right. She wants her kids to have a niece or nephew from the Ziegler side of things and as I am the only married sibling the responsibility falls on me. LOL I don't mind the pressure, but not yet, soon but not yet.

Question at ease....

Well life is crazy but i still tend to find little moments away from the crazy just to be with my thoughts. Its amazing what little moments will do to help you understand things and heal on a personal level. This last month has been anything but easy dealing with inner demons and really questioning Heavenly Fathers motives. Why does something good happen to someone and not to me? When I pray about things the answer is no but why is it yes for others. But thankfully right now I am at peace. I am comfortable were I am at. Life is not that exciting but that is okay, because I have my loving husband who loves me even when my hormones get the best of me and I start crying for no reason. At least we can find something to laugh about everyday. Because he really is my best friend!

So there was a young girl that worked at LDSBC that died new years eve, she was from korea and had jut gotten engaged that night. Its a sad story. But there was a poem that was on her funeral program that meant a lot to me. It made me cry. Thinking about death is probably not the best o things but it really made me think if I were to die would those I love know how much they mean to me?

When tomorrow starts without me,
 And I'm not there to see,
 If the sun should rise and find your eyes
 All filled with tears for me;

I wish so much you wouldn't cry
 The way you did today,
 While thinking of the many things,
 We didn't get to say.

I know how much you love me,
 As much as I love you,
 And each time that you think of me,
 I know you'll miss me too;

But when tomorrow starts without me,
 Please try to understand,
 That an angel came and called my name,
 And took me by the hand,

And said my place was ready,
 In heaven far above,
 And that I'd have to leave behind
 All those I dearly love.

But as I turned to walk away,
 A tear fell from my eye 
For all my life, I'd always thought, 
I didn't want to die.

I had so much to live for,
 So much left yet to do 
It almost seemed impossible
 That I was leaving you.

I thought of all the yesterdays,
 The good ones and the bad,
 I thought of all the love we shared,
 And all the fun we had.

If I could relive yesterday,
 Just even for a while, I'd say good-bye and kiss you 
And maybe see you smile.

But then I fully realized,
 That this could never be,
 For emptiness and memories,
 Would take the place of me.

And when I thought of worldly things,
 I might miss come tomorrow 
I thought of you, and when I did,
 My heart was filled with sorrow.

But when I walked through Heavens Gates, 
I felt so much at home.
 When God looked down and smiled at me,
 From His great golden throne,

He said, "This is eternity,
 And all I've promised you.
 Today your life on earth is past,
 But here life starts anew.

I promise no tomorrow,
 But today will always last,
 And since each day's the same way
 There's no longing for the past.

You have been so faithful,
 So trusting and so true.
 Though there were times you did some things
 You knew you shouldn't do.

But you have been forgiven
 And now at last you're free. 
So won't you come and take my hand
 And share my life with me?"

So when tomorrow starts without me,
 Don't think we're far apart, 
For every time you think of me, 
I'm right here, in your heart.

Copyright © David M Romano


With the new year we are all making new year resolutions so i thought I wonder what the most popular resolutions are. Some may surprise you!

1. Spend more time with family and friends

Life gets crazy so I can understand were this one is coming from.

2. Fit in fitness

So many of us claim that we don't have time to exercise. Truth be told we don't want to have time.

3. Tame the debt.

In this world most definite.

4. Quit smoking.

In a world were over half the population smokes it doesn't surprise me that this one made the top ten.

5. Enjoy life more

This one I need to do more as well. Enjoy every moment of every day.

6. Quit drinking

No surprise there either.

7. Learn something new

8. Help others

9. Get organized

10. Loose weight

surprised this one was not #1.

As for my resaltuion its kind of a combination of a few of these. so this year i am not going to make the resolution to loose weight like I do every year, and every year I fail.... this year it is to become more healthy... meaning eating better, exercising more, and less junk food that does nothing for me!

CHristmas Memories

Today at church we had the Relief Society and Priesthood together and they did a Christmas program. It was really good. It made me think what kind of things make Chrismas the magical time of year when the spirit is so prevalent? For me its reading the Christmas story, singing carols, decorating the house and being with family. But really even with that I didn't feel all that Christmasy until today. I am not sure what changed it was it hearing it all together? Or was it just the setting, what ever it was I am glad because now I can't wait for Christmas, sadly that is less than a week away. Why couldn't this of happened earlier? Now I only have a week to enjoy the spirit of Christmas.

But it also made me think of some of my favorite hol

iday memories. So I am making a list for all of you to enjoy....

1. One year Nichole (my sister) was so excited for it to be Christmas and so she decided to wake up really early that morning and open the presents... not just her presents but mine as well. I got woken up by her not long after with "Mariah, Mariah!" She then proceded to tell me everything I had gotten for Christmas. As a result Christmas was not that fun for

me that year.

2. I remember one year we woke up to find a big foot print of ash by the fireplace. That was the coolest thing a 7 year old could of hoped for. See Santa is real!

3. Every year my mom would let us paint pictures on the window. She would make these pretty winter scenes but as for me I just liked the colors. It was a ton of fun!

4. As a family tradition we would go caroling every Christmas eve. Even though I was not that happy to be out in the cold I enjoyed spending time together.

5. As we decorated the tree every year we would listen to Forgotten Carols. The music is so beautiful! The tree may not be the prettiest but it was worth it, especially w

hen we got to add our ornament from that year. (We got a new one every year.)

Forgotten Carols

Last night Kyle and I were able to go see forgotten carols. (It was an early Christmas present from my family.) I loved every moment of it. There is just something about being there in person. I like to think of it as Christmas magic. The spirit of Christmas is so special. They had a song in there that I hadn't heard before I loved every moment of it. The music was beyond awesome it was "beawesome."

Michael came out after the play and he had David Bluth the most amazing singer ever, sing his carol. He ender up singing Arise and shine forth. Wow It was amazing. He told us the best part of doing the play for 19 years and playing a man that was 1900 years old was that he would never be too old to play it, and that his wife who played Sara got to come with him. He said that the best part of that was "making out backstage" everyone laughed. Then he had us all sing silent night. This woman next to me made me cry she told me that I had a beautiful voice. All my life I have never been told that, and I have always thought my voice was awful. I started crying she was so sweet!

Thank you to my family for giving me that very special experience. I think I didn't stop smiling the whole time.

Holiday magic

Well I have not been doing well at updating consistently.. I am awful I know. I hope everyones Thanksgiving was enjoyable. For me it was good, awkward but good. I was surrounded by people I didn't know and anyone that knows me, knows how enjoyable that one is. NOT!

But lights on Temple square have turned on, they are beautiful! The lights and the snow really makes it feel more like Christmas. I love it! Its cold but there is magic in the air this time of year. There is more giving, more joy, more acceptance and more love. Though these things are here year round there is simply more of it this time of year.

I am reminded of the Children's story Christmas Oranges. In this story there was a little girl in an orphanage, every year they received a single orange for Christmas, but this year the girl had done something that made the headmaster mad, as a result she didn't get her Christmas orange. But all the girls sacrificed one piece of there orange so that she could have some.

Do we share in such a sacrificing way? Do we give so much? Try this Christmas season to find ways you can give.