Moments in time

So this week has been entertaining to say the least. I mean with my younger brother trying to control my life. He was trying to tell me that we had to get pregnant before he goes on his mission. Um NO! Even though I am seriously baby hungry we are still sticking to our plan and waiting at least a year and we are waiting till we have health insurance. My brother tried telling me that I didn't need health insurance until I told him that he can pay the doctors bills then. That changed his mind very quickly. LOL he just loves kids so much. As do I but everything in its time. I will just have to be patient.

Kyle's cousin Jake just had a baby and I got to hold it. It helped me not be so baby hungry though. I kept freaking out because she kept making a face like she was choking. I was afraid that she was suffocating. I was so scared. But luckily she was alright. She was so tiny though.

The other day was entertaining, I got off work and Kyle told me to come to the church house. Kyle locked his keys in the church while practicing. He was playing the piano in the Relief society room because someone was on the organ in the chapel. Well I got there and got the attention of the person playing. He acted like I was going to mug him, seriously? I am a weak girl and I was wearing a skirt. Like I was really going to beat him up? Not likely. But I got the keys that's all I know.

So I am changing birth control pills. I am sick of the constant nausea that has come with it. Its like morning sickness with out the pregnancy. It sucks! I am hoping that it also helps with my emotional roller coaster. We will see. I just started yesterday so we will see.

Kyle and I are becoming coupon people. Hey any way to save money, right?

Dinner at home with Kyle

So tonight was entertaining. Here Kyle and I are eating dinner while watching Smallville, a knock on the door comes. I open the door and Senior missionaries are there asking for Kyle. Well the ward apparently gave them a list of people to go see and well Kyle was on there, they didn't even know about me. They figured that we were just dating, what would we be doing in a family ward if we were only dating??? Then they thought we not active (even though Kyle plays in sacrament every week and we go every week!) I don't get it! But then for some reason they thought I was a convert, hum not sure were that came from. But oh well. It was rather funny. Kyle and I are still laughing about it. On there way out they saw our picture of the temple, the prophet, Joseph praying in the grove, families are forever sign and picture of Christ and said "oh yes you pass." Oh my goodness!

Hero's

yesterday in church there was a high councler speaking about hero's he asked us who are your hero's. He told us a story about a missionary who had a low self esteem, he meet with the mission president on a weekly basis. Finally the mission president asked him who his hero's were. The missionary admitted he had none. He was then given a challenge to find someone to add to his list of possible candidates of hero hall a fame. The fallowing week in a meeting the missionary told the mission president that his new hero was Elder Talmage. The mission president was a little shocked that he would feel a connection to Elder Talmage. But over the fallowing weeks others were added to the hero hall of fame, a seminary teacher, a scout leader who was just doing his job, his father, and younger brother. Each of these had given him a huge influence that helped mold his life. Even though he had not realized it those around him had always been his hero's.

So I made a list of my own, my own personal hero's.

1. Jesus Christ

2. My father

3. Elder Holland

Who are your heros?

So the last 3 nights I have been tossing and turning ALL night! As a result I have been a little cranky, impatient, and emotional. I feel so bad about it. It has really mad me think about how much I love kyle, how lucky I am to have him and it makes me wonder if he really knows how much I love him.

Sometimes late at night

I lie awake and watch her sleeping She's lost in peaceful dreams So I turn out the lights and lay there in the dark And the thought crosses my mind If I never wake up in the morning W

ould she ever doubt the way I feel About her in my heart If tomorrow never comes Will she know how much I loved her Did I try in every way To show her every day That she's my only one If my time on earth were through And she must face the world without me Is the love I gave her in the past Gonna be enough to last If tomorrow ne

ver comes 'Cause I've lost loved ones in my life Who never knew how much I loved them Now I live with the regret That my true feelings for them never were revealed So I made a promise to myself To say each day how much she means to me And avoid that circumstance Where there's no

second chance To tell her how I feel If tomorrow never comes Will she know how much I loved her Did I try in every way To show her every day That she's my only one If my time on earth were through And she must face the world without me Is the love I gave her in the past Gonna be enough to last If tomorrow never comes So tell that someone that you love Just what you're thinking of If tomorrow never comes

I know that he knows that I love him but do I tell him enough? Do I treat him like I should everyday? I love him so much!

Testimony of the Book of Mormon

Testimony of the Book of Mormon

Job interviews

So the interviews are done. Now I get to play the waiting game. I hate having to wait. I am stressed out because now I have to wait. I have to wait to find out if I got the jobs, if I get to start something new. I am a little bit of a basket case filled with jitters and hoping that I will get something better then I have right now.

Tomorrow

So tomorrow is a busy day... phone interview at 8am, interview at Nordstom's at 11 am, on call at work at 12, and so on. Busy day. I am a little nervous, hoping all goes well though.

Its kinda nice so Kyle is taking a few less classes this quarter, translation being that Kyle is home with me more often! I defiantly like that but it makes it all that much harder when he leaves for class. The classes are shorter so I don't have to wait up till all hours of the night for him to get home either.

Well yesterday was fun. Kyle's friend Dave come up from Provo for the day. They went to the driving range while I was at work and then we all went to Red Robin for dinner. It was nice to have an excuse to get out of the house. Plus the weather was finally nice, so it was worth it. I love Dave he is a great guy, he is always contagiously happy.

Kyle is making key lime pie tonight. YUmmmY! I remember the first time I had it was when we were dating and YES he made it.... SO good! I love yumminess! I love that man. I can't believe how lucky I am. I ask myself every day what I did to deserve a man like him. And every day the answer is the same I DON'T HAVE A CLUE. I am sure every woman feels that way, but this is me talking so I get to be the selfish one and say that I am the LUCKIEST woman ALIVE! (Sorry everyone!)

So all the applications are starting to FINALLY pay off. I had a phone interview with Sprint this morning while I was getting ready for work. That was interesting. Getting dressed with a phone attached to me. Not that easy just to let you know. The I have been playing phone tag with another job offer, problem being they are just opening a new office here in Salt Lake and they are based out of the East coast. (Two hour difference makes things a little more difficult!) The problem is I am torn if offered a job at all of them which should I take? I just don't know I guess I will see when and if the time comes.

Today I was given the opportunity (hehe) to fill out a employee survey ha ha ha.... Yeah I enjoyed that one. It basically asked what we liked about working there, if we would suggest someone else work there, etc. But my favorite part I think was they asked how we thought our managers were doing there job. Um NOT! I finally had something that I could get my frustrations out with.

Job interview

So the interview went well. It was short but she seemed to like what I said. I am going in on monday to have an interview in person. I am a little excited but also a little nervous. Not that I need to be I mean I am already doing the job at Victoria's Secret.

Counting my blessings

I think all to often we as a people as the general population of this place we call earth, that is our home become so caught up in our lives that we tend to forget. Forget from whence we came. That we do in deed have a Heavenly Father, that he loves each one of us and that everything that we have comes from him. Everything from the air we breath to the roof over our heads is a blessing a gift if you will from him.

My challenge for myself was to think only of the blessings that I have been given in my life. (Hard part is I had to think of the blessings ONLY from this week.) I was not allowing myself to go strolling down memory lane and being grateful for ever Tom, Dick, and Harry.... But to think on a deeper level. Things that I was truly gratefully for. Things that had truly impacted me. Things that made me get to my knees and thank my Heavenly Father right there and then for them.

After thinking about these items I made myself pick only the top five. Five things that I was most gratefully for. now this made me think even more. What was there that I was more grateful for then anything else? What could I rank above everything else. (This was not easy!) The top 3 I had no problem with.

1. My savior Jesus Christ

2. My membership in the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day saints

3. My eternal companion and husband

But then I had to think what other 2 things am I most gratefully for? Is it my health? My family? My friends? But all this time remembering that I had to have been thankful for it in this past week! As I thought and thought I kept remembering a scripture that I read recently. "For Moses had said, ^aConsecrate yourselves to day to the Lord, even every man upon his ^bson, and upon his brother; that he may bestow upon you a ^cblessing this day." (Exodus 32:10)

As we give our self to God as we show our gratitude for all that he has given us he will bless us even more. That is when I decided what my other top 5 items would be.

4. Scriptures that allow me to come closer to God

5. The ability to repent, because I know I am not perfect. I need repentance to become better!

Hope all of you can take the time to figure out your top 5! What are you most grateful for?

The Love letter I never wrote

So today sitting here procrastinating listening to sappy romantic songs I have decided that I often tell Kyle that I love him but I often do not tell him why.... So I have decided that I am going to tell the world why I love this man. I am going to stop the trend of not saying what I mean, of not telling my husband what he means to me. Like BBS' mini series of Robin hood says so well "we have never once spoken the truth to each other, for instance i call you a fool when I mean you are a hero." Those words I believe say it best, if we love someone we should say it, say it right then, shout it from the roof tops. Why hid that love? So Kyle this is for you because I love you! You get a letter and a list of the top 10 reasons that I love you!

1. You make me laugh every day, there is never a day that goes by that I do not laugh at least once!

2. You are my best friend! I don't want to ever be apart from you, because you are the one that I want to be with.

3. You love me faults and all!

4. You let me vacuum

5. We both know that together we can work anything out

6. Even when I am grumpy or tired you still like me and like being with me.

7. You think I am always beautiful even when I look like a clown or when my hair looks like a rats nest. I may not feel beautiful at times but knowing you always think I am makes all the difference.

8. You always speak your mind! if you don't like my makeup you will tell me and not lie telling me i look fine when I really look like a hooker!

9. You let me talk as much or as little as I want with out becoming impatient.

10. I can tell you ANYTHING and you are totally ok with it. (Even when you really didn't need to know it.)

11. You can read my emotions better than anyone else and when I tell you I am ok and you know I am not you call me on it.

12. Sometimes you call just because you miss me and were thinking of me!

13. Who else can I laugh at my self with? "Hello Mr. Wall"

14. You don't mind just cuddling with me!

15. Your selfless!

16. You are always concerned with my well being, sometimes even before your own!

17. The way you make me feel like I am winning even when I am not!

18. The way you bring out the best in me!

19. How cute and adorable you can be!

20. I love every part of you, how open you are with me.

21. I love how you tickle me even when I scream and run away!

22. I love that you never give up on me, or my lack of patience.

23. I love the way you make me laugh

24. I love the way that just holding you makes the world sing!

25. I love you for a million little reasons everyone of them becomes more and more apparent every day! Thank you for loving me!

Well that was a little more then 10... sorry I had a hard time stopping at 25 I really could go on forever. Kyle is my life, my love, and the man I choose to be with forever!

Dear Kyle,
You are my everything. Thank you for loving me the way no one can. You understand me and you know just how to make things right, you make me laugh when no one else can. You will never know just how much I love you, but I will spend the rest of my days trying to show you. You saved me from the worst, and you are always there for me. Fighting is never an option and loving you is always as easy as breathing. It is a part of me, it is part of my soul. No matter what, there will never be another for me and I will always keep your love safe. I love you... for all eternity. I still to this day do not know what I did to deserve you, but I will work each moment of forever to be worthy of your love.

I love you because you make me look forward to each day. You make each and every day an adventure to look forward to, no matter what we are doing as long as I am with you I am happy. You're my everything, a dream come true. There are no words to express what I feel for you. There are no songs as beautiful as the music that fills my soul when I hear your voice or see you smile. There are no days better than the days I spend talking to you, holding you, making you happy. You're my light in the darkness. There could never be words strong enough to express my love for you. I love you with my body, soul, and mind. You're my everything.

I love every little thing about you. I love your cute smile, your magical eyes, and the sound of your voice. I love your gentle touch, and I love the warmth I feel when I’m by your side. I can't stop thinking about you when we are apart. I need you by my side. You complete me. You mean the world to me. You are the best thing that has ever happened to me. You are the one I've always wished for. I never thought that I would ever meet someone as special as you. I love each and every moment I share with you. Forever doesn't seem long enough to be with you. I love you and always will!

Love always,

Mariah your eternal companion

Weekly catch up

Well this past week has been an emotional roller coaster I know what you are thinking... another one? But I promise that it is mostly out of stress. So this week at work I went from working 40 plus hours a week to 20! I was so upset I asked if I did anything wrong. Apparently it wasn't me it was them but yet I am still getting punished for it. They were not giving breaks like is required by law!!! There were days that I would work a 9 hour shift with out a break, got to love it. Someone reported them to the labor union and well now they are making sure that at exactly 5 hours you are going on break and if they don't have enough people to cover breaks you are only scheduled for a 4 1/2 hour shift..... got to love it. NOT!

Needless to say because of the lack of hours I have been forced to look for another part time job. I hate looking for a new job. I had a couple of places that seemed promising, but apparently I wanted to be payed to much. I think I am worth it. I have an interview later today (phone interview) with a telemarketing place that is just opening a new office here in Utah for an office manager position. I hope that goes well. I think it will. I may not have experience in telemarketing but I have YEARS of experience with managing people and with receptionist work, its the same thing but in reverse. Instead of them calling me I call them. Watch out I might call you and you better be nice to me!

Nichole and Peter were here for general conference. He was singing in the Priesthood session of conference (in the conference center.) I was so happy to see them. I love my sister and I don't get to see her often with her living back in Illinois and me here in Utah. I miss her already and she just left yesterday.

So Kyle and I are going to go look at a new apartment latter today. Our lease is up in June at the place we are now, and the price is going to go up.... lovely! So we GET to move. But we are hoping on finding a place that is a little bigger, we are running out of room because we have to much stuff. I think this apartment would be great for a newly wed couple that hadn't lived on there own before but since we both did we have a lot of stuff.

Today has been hard though because I feel so depressed and I don't even know why. I miss Kyle more then normal. It felt like when he left for work that part of me was leaving. I miss him so much, I just need one of his hugs right now. He has a way of making me feel better no matter what by simply giving me a hug. I don't think I can ever be mad at him for more then 5 minutes either. He really is my better 1/2. He brings light and joy into my life. He is the reason I get out of bed each morning, the reason I am so happy. He brings so much joy into my life. There is never a day that goes by that I don't laugh. He is definitely good for me!

This weeks weather has been a soar spot for me though, Thursday it was 65 F sunny and beautiful, then walla Friday hits and SNOW!!! It snowed all weekend long and well monday night we had a lovely blizzard and the power went out. It would of been fine except the power stayed off and I was home along! I was a little scared. I don't like being home alone at nights anyway. But here it was 10 pm Kyle was at school and I was trying to stay calm. Grr 1/2 hour later the power came back on. I was just a little scardy cat thats all.